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JuJu Be Triplet Diaper Bag!

Thursday, May 12, 2016


I recently learned about JuJu Be, at first I was scared away by their prices, but after digging deeper into what their bags have to offer... I can see the benefit and it swayed me to purchase a JuJu Be BRB in the admiral print.


They keep you organized like I've never seen! The design is very thought out and reallllly genius in my opinion! 
The fabric is soft and it's Teflon coating wicks away moisture. Can we just talk about the pattern- Im in LOVE. Im obsessed with anchor at the moment {perfect for my summer bag!}

I'll admit I have 3 diaper bags... 
This BRB (I needed a back pack option!)
And TWO Skip Hop Duos, one in French strip and the other on their herringbone pattern. The herringbone will be my dressy/winter bag. 

Ok back on topic.

The BRB has a totally of 13 (ish) pockets. (5 interior and 8 exterior)

So let's start...
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Very front pocket. Magnetic snap closure 
And place for photo.
I keep cash or card here whatever I will use frequently. My hands are full I don't want to dig for my wallet and search for money/cards. Love the photo area. Makes it feel personal- and if they are screaming... I can take a moment and look at how sweet they can be:) behind the photo I have a little piece of paper "return of found" 
with my Name, Address, Phone number.



The "mommy pocket"
Everything for me (mostly...).
Yes that's a built in sungls pouch! And you can clean your lenses safely with it! 
There's a second elastic pouch where I keep Advil, eye drops, Chapstick/lipgloss.
Another mesh elastic pocket toward the bottom I keep a tide to go pen and sanitizer surface wipes. There's a long tether with a clip on the end, I attached hand sanitizer and a coin purse. 
It's a pretty deep pocket, plenty of space! 


This is a specialty lined pocket to protect your phone, or anything else that could scratch! I believe it's felt... It felt like felt (lol). It's soft.


Now for the LARGE main compartment-
It has a place to keep wipes (secured by elastic.) below is another mesh pocket I use for rolled up receiving blankets, extra diapers, or a few bottles. 
They purple bag is by "Twelve Little".
I LOVE IT. It comes with a long strap that you can clip to the small d-rings and wear as a cross body with just the essentials. More details next photo.
The zipper panel pocket is great for extra clothes (or dirty clothes), bibs, flat folded blankets... 

The black and white bag is my first aide kit. Filled with hand wipes, Gas drops, Kleenex and my suction.


Inside the Twelvelittle bag (www.twelvelittle.com)... More wipes and more diapers (because I blow through them!) elastic holds the wipes in place, the zipper bag in the middle is detachable and reattches by snaps. It's mesh on one side to breathable. It also has a matching changing pad. 
Again, it has the strap that makes the bag into a cross body- I can grab them and go if I need to do a quick run in somewhere and not tote the whole bag. 


I'm alittle frugal... After the price tag of the bag, I refused to buy their stroller clips "be connected" so I got these clips at Home Depot. If I rig them just right they work... I attached to the D rings and can hang from my snap and go stroller. I can also clip my keys here for easy access. 
There are two side pockets that I keep 2 bottles on one side and the formula container on the other side. 
They are surprisingly deep, roomy pockets!! 


My new paci pod!{separately}
I chose a different but coordinating pattern. It fits 2 pacis and they are held in by elastic. You could also use this for Chapstick/lipstick. 


(Back up pacis)
Yes I have 3 babies, and yes this is only 2, what are the chances all three of the first pacis hit the ground. Haha. 
Don't jinx me. 



Top handle pocket. I keep my wallet here. It's the perfect spot. It's quite large.
You could use it alone for first aide, or formula packets.... Etc.
(or an extra shirt Incase of spit up catastrophe)



Back large panel pocket. This is where you find the changing pad- I use it for paperwork, great iPads, small laptops etc! It's great for travel! 
 There is memory foam on the back panel that presses against your back making it very comfy and padded straps also. 


Ask any questions:) 
I'm open to anyone else's tips and tricks!


Xo


1 year.

Monday, May 2, 2016

May 2 2016

365 days since I last saw your little faces.
Life is so wonderful and more than I could ever imagined possible a year ago. It looks almost perfect from the outside looking in, but the truth is, it's never going to be fully complete just like I'll never fully heal. All these emotions and memories only become tolerable, never easier. 

I was sent three perfect miracles that have brought a level of healing some people will never have. How such an amazing blessing landed in my lap is only explained by a miracle


Sometimes I just like to pretend you three were sent back to me... And you really aren't gone.
Thank you for my perfect miracles. I know you guarded them&
I look for each of you in their faces. 


I will share (for the benefit of others that are or will brave the journey again...)
This pregnancy I put myself on auto pilot just wanted to get past the weeks and to the day I would meet them... Some days, most days, I believed I would lose them also. Constantly waiting for the "other shoe to drop" why wouldn't it... When something so horrific has happened once, you'll never feel exempt from disaster again. You'll never say never... 
You actually believe it's just part of your normal. I was actually convinced if nothing happened to them... It would be me. I was not going to be able to enjoy them... They weren't "real" yet, and maybe they never would be to me.
I was petrified during the entire csection... Waiting for my stats to drop, blood loss, I was the crazy patient that in the days leading up I was asking about iron infusions and blood transfusions to make sure I could have control of something... I would do anything to make sure it all went ok.

Time ticked by so slow it seemed like forever while I was in the middle of it, but now it's over, they are here. Safe. So I am. It happened So much faster than I thought possible. It's bitter sweet. I don't regret being fearful or closing myself up- that's what you do when you've lost a child, children and you've been put back at the start of a scary similar race...
BUT
 If there's one thing I've learned is time stops for no one. It keeps going and that's a good thing because it keeps you going too. For now my mind is still trying to catch up to my body.
I'm desperately trying to comprehend the fact they are indeed mine, all mine.
They are here with me...


To my children, What an amazing gift you've given me and what priceless lessons you've all taught me. You've given me something to stand for and live for. I will not stop talking, because my children are worth talking about and what I suffered through, my diagnosis, was and IS preventable. 
I WILL speak out for my children, and for others. 




Our Family Tradition.

May 2015

May 2, 2016

To know me Is to know them. 
Who I am right now, today, is because of them. I have more compassion, empathy and sensitivity than I've ever carried. They are a blessing not a sad story. 








Almost that time.

Sunday, May 1, 2016





As we near the 1 year mark I can't help but be overwhelmed with devastating sadness,  but over come with incredible joy. A year ago we were on top of the world... The excitement would only last 5 months. 
We desperately tried to save them and keep them safe inside. Everyone was so optimistic, but it's like I already knew the outcome. 
My body has both let me down far past anything I thought I could recover from, but gave me the three miracles I sit here and stare at....


I'm stuck between two places, where I was a year ago... And where I am now.
There are no words to say how remarkable it is to be here staring at 3 babies that were promised on Jax Stella and Beck's birthday (had they been born @40 weeks) I used this as a sign, a promise everything would be ok.

I also just realized, while it can happen In multiples (once a baby is removed it creates more room and they shift during birth), but they were born in the same order. Aspen was actually baby C and Cross B- 

Jax was A
Stella B
Beck C
...
Asher A
Aspen B
Cross C


There were so many signs, too many to ignore, I never should have doubted everything was going to be ok. Every once in awhile Id even hear a voice say that..., "everything is going to be ok"... 
It was. It still is.




Happy International Bereaved Mother's Day.
I'll never forget ANY story that was shared with me, I remember them all! 
Don't feel forgotten. 


God is good, he will make it right in his time. 

Tomorrow will be the day and we will continue our tradition... I'll
Share these details soon:)
We couldn't be more touched to be able to include their siblings this year!


1 Month

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Better late than never

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My Miracles are 1 month old! 
We are shocked it's already been a month, 11 more and they are one.
Time flys. 



One month ago I was seen by my MFM for my 32 weeks appt. During that growth scan we saw 3 activate healthy babies, but noticed baby A(Asher)'s Doppler showed reverse cord flow and baby B(Cross) had a growth restriction.
She studied my chart and went over the past several scans then said "I don't advise waiting... Based on the abnormaties I suggest delivery", and left to call my OB. She walked back in and said head to the hospital!
I was confused... I asked her what's the plan, she said you're having babies today! 
Uhhh... What!?
AND by 6:02 all my babies we here.
Finally. Safe. 

Aspen & Asher needed alittle help breathing and Cross the tiniest was screaming,and breathing good on his own! 

32 weeks can be scary for some... But for us it meant that our babies would be ok. They would need to spend sometime in the hospital, but they were coming home with me. Even if I have to wait 4 weeks.


Over the past 4 weeks they were born 
(8 weeks early)
Spent 26 days in the NICU 
(with awesome nurses)
Worked on their breathing and doing it with out extra help.
Learned to eat without the feeding tube
Gained about a pound each
and are now HOME.


They are SO good, Rarely crying unless I don't get a bottle in their mouth fast enough! 
They eat, nap and cuddle.
They love their MamaRoos, Rock n Plays, and wubbanubs. 

We are OVER THE MOON to have them here safe, healthy and growing.

Birth Weights-
Aspen 3lbs 14oz
Asher 3lbs 10oz
Cross 2lbs 14oz (growth restriction baby)
Current weights-
Aspen 4lbs 11oz
Asher 4lbs 8oz
Cross 4lbs 3oz

My babies are growing SO fast (too fast!) 

*taken with iphone during newborn shoot

My perfect Angels.


We are approaching the 1 year mark, when we lost Jax, Stella and Beck 
and we look at these babies and just wonder, "How did we get so luck". 
We are so blessed. It's a true miracle they are here with us.
I look forward to the day when we teach them about their brothers and sister that played
 a HUGE role in getting them here safe and healthy. 
*taken with iPhone during newborn shoot





"34 weeks"

Monday, March 21, 2016



My babies are 2 weeks old!
or "34 weeks"
Oh my!
My "goal" was 34 weeks, but what a wonderful surprise
 to get to meet them earlier than expected.


How blessed we are that they are so healthy and learning what they need to come home with us! 

Over the past week they have lost alittle weight, but then gained it back plus more. Asher and Aspen are wearing big boy and girl clothes! No more just diapers. Cross our tiny boy wore his first outfit today! He just needs a bit more fat to help him maintain his body temp and will be catching up soon!

Last week Aspen and Asher's oxygen was removed, Cross did not require any since birth, no more IVs, they are now feeder-growers! They are tolerating their feeds and taking their vitamins:). 

The doctor ordered a brain sono just as a precaution, major problems are rare at 32 weeks, but I'm thankful for the extra Checking. Everything was normal. 

They are starting to learn how to eat orally, they are making great progress and eating more everytime we try. Aspen is food motivated! Most of the time she takes her whole feed in the bottle, if she keeps this up she will be coming home first!

They love to be held and we love to hold them... 
They make the sweetest noises like little baby dinosaurs. 


The last few days have been pretty exciting (for me). 

Saturday
We had a photographer from "The tiny footprints project" come take photos of them. It's a wonderful organization that provides this free service to NICU families. We will look back on these memories and smile. We are so blessed. There is currently only photography for the DFW area, so if you are a photographer please consider donating alittle of your time- what a beautiful service you'd be providing. 


Today 
I got to snuggle them all skin to skin -together- for the first time. Cross thought he was an only child and was enjoying his freedom... He was a worm and fussy, then he got some lunch in his tummy and settled down alittle. It was pretty magical.
 I still can't believe they are mine... 

Here are some pictures our nurse took while the photographer was there so I could have a few now, I'm so impatient! 
And some pictures from today... Our skin to skin time. 



Thanks to everyone for being apart of our journey. We have no clue how we got so lucky. 

This is what a MIRACLE looks like...
Aspen, Cross, Asher 






If you think my hands are full, you should see my heart. 
Soon enough they will be too big to hold together. 

God IS Good.






They're here!

Monday, March 14, 2016


It's been a week!
What a week it has been.


I certainly didn't expect to goto my (32 week
appointment and then be told we are delivering TODAY!


I was sad and glad. Sad that I couldn't not get them further, but GLAD they would be soon be out and in my arms safe... I was starting to have anxiety everyday that something was going to happen.
We made it.  



WAITING...


Scrubbing in
Here comes Daddy!


More waiting...
Here we go... Major panic behind the smile.
Everyone was excited!  



And... they're coming... 


Hard work having 3 babies. I need a nap.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY!



Today they are one week old and are doing SO well.   They will be in the NICU for at least 3-4 weeks, they are all "Feeders/Growers", off oxygen, IVs and only having feeding tubes. They start to bottle feed this week. Another answered prayer, they are moving right along for being born early.



We are so impressed and PROUD. 


 Asher born at 6:01 PM  3lbs. 10oz

Aspen born at 6:02 PM  3lbs. 14oz



Cross at 6:02 PM.  2lbs. 15oz



Thanks for being apart of our journey. 
God is SO good.
Holding them is surreal
We have been abundantly blessed.








What they don't know...

Saturday, March 5, 2016

What they don't know...


I don't think you have to be an expectant parent of multiples, or currently raising multiples to imagine the strange questions, rude remarks (though not always on purpose), intrusive questions, and staring like we are an attraction.

The blessings out way all this no doubt, but it's still infuriating when I hear some of it...
 Particularly for me.





You're going to be so busy!
So? Are you not busy? Why is being busy a bad thing... I laid in bed for almost 9 months, bored out of my mind, for them... Keeping them safe-
 I need some excitement. Even some chaos. 
I'll take it- gladly especially if that means I get them. 
Instead maybe tell me how blessed I am. 

How are you going to afford it? 
Idk. 
True story: Somehow every time we've hit a bump we've been provided for.  Whether it was amazing blessings from family and friends (sometimes strangers-other moms of multiples, gave us free or heavily discounted items), or just praying for something to fall into place and make this easier- and it did. 

"Are they natural? Did you do anything special?"
First of all, if that's all you have to say don't say anything. If that's your first thought and question I suspect you aren't genuine. 
Where's my congratulations and celebration, is that all you're thinking about? 
Do I walk around asking you how you got pregnant? About your sex life? 
Or Your medical history?
Here's your answer once and for all to know- the good ol' fashion way.
 YES IM A FREAK OF NATURE. 
Even if I DID use some sort of IVF, IUI, Injections...
Why does that matter- does it make them less important? Babies are babies... Miracles, no matter how they arrive.
(&do you know how expensive that all is?) God bless those who DO have to go that route.

Are you going to breastfeed all three? 
Really? I'm rolling my eyes right now.  
I'll do what I am able to do and what is best for them (and ME). You can't anticipate the future, what you're able to produce- I'm smart enough to hope for the best, but not set up unrealistic expectations for myself. 
It shouldn't matter to anyone else. 
Respect. 
But, Yes I did for a brief period. 

Are you going to have them "naturally"?
Again, none of your business. 
Is there a natural way to bring your child/children in to world? 
(Almost as bad as asking "are they natural"... Nope they are fake, what?!!)
You can plan all you want, and I hope it goes according to that "plan" but this might be your first taste of- having a child means you can't "plan" for things to go your way. 
Learn to adapt. And respect.
{these two questions can be innocent- but ask yourself why do you care?} judgement?  




This one doesn't bother me too much, It just really confuses me... 
"Are you going to have more/you are done right?"
I have NO idea. Did you {would you} start planning your next child while still pregnant (with 3) or a month post p. My guess is no.
Can I survive these first? I need to make sure I can keep them alive and healthy for at least a year before I consider more!
{ I think that's pretty responsible of me! }

To be continued...


The comments-

From a man, "my mom would have killed herself". (Well good thing you weren't/aren't a triplet).

"You're never going to leave the house again." Maybe not, but that means I don't have to see you for more unnecessary comments! 

"My friend has twins"
Great. Congratulations? 
{what do I say next}

"Are these you're first"
{innocent question}
My first thoughts, "this is about to become uncomfortable... They have no idea..." 

"Your so small, where are you hiding them" 
My hips can assure you they are all there, and the scale doesn't lie, but God bless you! I think I love you.

{32 weeks! Thurston Triplets!}


All of these annoying comments and questions bring one thing to mind immediately. What they don't know is I've had to say goodbye to 3 children that should be here. 
No amount of Chaos, stress, stupid questioning etc, can compare to the stress, chaos and emotions I've already dealt with. 
I want to scream, "if you only knew!"

But,  I'll take it all if that means I get them. 


{I have a feeling I'm going to be editing this in the future as the craziness continues.}









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